CHAPTER
1.
A Major
Assignment
Late July, it was
ninety-four in the valleys of Southwestern Virginia, with the humidity hovering on the
unbearable. The Buick's air conditioner had grown less functional as the outside
conditions came more clearly to require it, and Maggie's skirt and thigh felt as though
they were actually glued to the hot upholstery; while the elastic top of her panties
caught an occasional drop of perspiration rolling down the back, which nature had intended
for the cleft between the buttocks.
Had there been more than ninety-three miles from the last rest
area twenty on the expressway until the designated exit and seventy-three on the local
road) before Ridgemont, Maggie would have stopped to freshen up. But promising herself a
long shower at her destination, she drove on by. Wet and sticking to the vinyl, she wanted
no halfway measure.
Margaret Anne Robertson had graduated from Sarah Lawrence in June
of 1992. A Journalism major, co-editor of the student newspaper, she had applied on
graduation to many of the better Eastern journals. And after a short stint in Providence
(doing rewrites for the local "Tempo" section), had landed a position in
Philadelphia, as a working reporter. However, her initial joy had been somewhat premature.
She would soon realize that her City Editor, who was neither
impressively masculine nor singularly intelligent, expected that in due course she would
sleep with him; and made it clear--without anything so tangible as to form the basis for a
formal complaint--that "due course" ought to be after a couple of cheap dinners
at the nearest outlet of a large Eastern chain. When Maggie had politely declined, he had
brought her up:
"Did you expect Bookbinders?! You're an adult now,
Robertson. Sex is just a way to keep relationships relaxed and friendly. I don't
want to put strings on you. I just thought that we should get to know one another--as long
as we are going to be working together professionally."
Thereafter, her enthusiasm for the job had rapidly waned. It was
not just the strained working conditions. Her assignments, never better than fair, were
now those which no one with status would accept. It was then something of a Godsend, when
an older friend (the senior editor, when as a sophomore, she had joined the staff of the
collegiate newspaper) had called from New York to say that there was an opening on the
Times. That had been in August, 1993.
Now in 1994, Maggie faced her moment of truth. For eleven months,
she had accepted every task with a cheerful smile and a ready pencil, while always
expressing the wish for greater challenge--for a chance to cover a developing story where
initiative and insight could make a difference--with maybe, just maybe, the possibility of
a byline. And opportunity had come at last in the unusual three-cornered contest for the
Senate from Virginia.
Her editor had decided on a true experiment. Why not let a young
woman of the '90's cover the campaign of the intellectual "Neanderthal," now
challenging the verity of two generations of social progress. Maggie had the right
credentials: An impeccable academic background from a first rate private college; a
personal commitment to the basic ideals of the Woman's movement--not from any lack of
feminine charm or physical endowment, but from the confident acceptance of an emergent
role as only right and fitting;--yet neither awed by men, nor antagonistic to their
sexuality; indeed, in the editor's eyes, the perfect example of a healthy, heterosexual
young career woman, whose very existence would prove an antidote to the reactionary vision
of freshman Congressman Charles Daniel Stuart.
For two weeks, Maggie had criss-crossed Virginia, interviewing
local politicians, editors, organizational heads, and representative samples of the voting
public; learning much and reporting those findings she thought significant, each night, to
her employer via a small laptop computer with a telephone modem. While at first rather
unselective, day by day her copy had improved. And the editor had long since concluded
that he had made a most fortuitous choice in picking Maggie.
The race had attracted considerable attention from the moment the
handsome Representative from the Virginia Piedmont had declared in January. His candidacy
had captured the imagination of right wing idealogues, the paranoia of those on the left,
and the apprehensions of a broad mainstream of bipartisan politicians.
Seizing the reality that the major parties were about to nominate
near carbon copies of one another's middle-aged candidates, the debonair thirty-four year
old had announced that he would seek the Senate as a Jeffersonian independent--in the not
too distant tradition of former Senator Harry Byrd, Jr.--laying bold claim to the
ideological mantle of Harry, Sr..
When shortly thereafter, the Virginia branch of NOW had announced
that it would also field a candidate--in part as an angry reaction to the
"studied" moderation of the Republican and Democratic nominees on "Women's
Issues" in the face of the "studied reaction" of the independent;--an
elderly analyst in Richmond had written a provocative article, which had come to be widely
circulated.
He had suggested that, even in this post-poll tax era, there were
still enough hard-core conservative voters that the "Albemarle Blueblood" (a
distant cousin to the celebrated "Bonnie Prince Charlie," still living in a 1746
manor house, where Jefferson and Madison had been frequently entertained) might just
"pull it off" if the vote got any more fragmented; and that the NOW candidate,
by stirring the cauldron, could only serve to popularize Stuart with his own element, and
bring out the largest possible reactionary vote.
At this point, the pollsters had taken over, and the mainstream
apprehension had grown into an alarm, while the left-wing paranoia became a panic. By late
May in the Piedmont, where he was well known, Stuart was showing at 32%, compared to 29
for the Democrat, 27 for the Republican and 2% for NOW, with 10% still undecided.
Statewide, the respective numbers were 25, 33, 30, 3 and 9. But with the momentum clearly
beginning to flow in Stuart's favor, there was scant comfort for the major parties. More
perplexing, with voters under twenty-five, he was at 30% in the State totals; and despite
having been denounced as "Sexist" in the media, was only slightly stronger with
the young men than with their sisters.
In June, a Washington Post correspondent had cornered Stuart's
twenty-five year old South African born wife, emerging with the couple's three year old
daughter from a Matinee screening of the Disney version of "Snow White," and had
forced an interview soon heard round the continent.
"Mrs.
Stuart, can we ask you some questions on the campaign?"
"I am sorry,
but I leave the answers to my husband."
"Can I take
it from your response, that you agree with the attitude for which he has been denounced as
'sexist' by many of the leading women's organizations?"
"I am not
sure what you mean by 'women' or 'leading.' But I am quite certain that a wife, who 'isn't
yet a citizen,' should not be commenting on public issues."
After several
other unsuccessful forays, the reporter had tried something more imaginative.
"Mrs.
Stuart, I see that you have taken your daughter to 'Snow White.' Did she enjoy it?"
"Very much,
thank you."
"As a
parent, were you concerned about the image of a young woman sitting around wishing--then
dreaming--that a hand-some Prince might come along to solve her problems? Couldn't a movie
of that type leave your daughter with a harmful impression?"
"You mean as opposed to one showing young women in military
combat, with the upper body strength of Sumo Wrestlers; or one with asexual robots
fighting other asexual robots?
"Snow White is shown as a good cook and eager homemaker, who
enriches the lives of the little men. I know 'Prince Charmings' sometimes need
encouragement. But the image of a virtuous young woman, who pitches in and does what is
necessary to enhance the happiness of those around her, is exactly what my husband and I
would want for our daughter.
"And if the pretty songs help Mary Anerley to realize that
finding the right man, someday, will be the most important thing in her life--I know it
was in mine--then all the better!"
"That sounds very romantic. But don't you expect more for
your daughter than being a good cook or maid? I mean, isn't that really all that Snow
White is for the Dwarfs?"
"Men have careers. Women have families! It takes more effort
and intelligence to keep a home clean and cheerful, than to work in an office under the
direction of a corporate supervisor. It takes more energy, brains and enthusiasm to be a
good mother--which condition usually comes soon enough to the good homemaker--than it does
to be an average doctor or lawyer.
"I'm not criticizing married women who have to work--and I
have only sympathy for those who can't have babies. But no amount of money can buy the
contentment that a good woman can provide to her husband and children, and with them--and
through a mutual happiness--to herself.
"It is no different now than it has always been. The ideal
is for the man to earn enough that the wife may pursue the art of living--her job to
maintain a haven where they can love, and each can be restored to face whatever he must
deal with."
"You don't think that most women would prefer to take
advantage of the more attractive opportunities, now available?"
"Any work without love is drudgery! The only thing that has
changed are the settings. Where women once worked in the fields or as domestics, today
they work in offices and factories. But where they labor only for money, the result is
still drudgery."
The reporter had turned in a tape of the actual interview with
his story; and the liberal editor had concluded--after the manner of the more opinionated
of whatever persuasion, who feel that most of the world share their primary
assumptions--that a transcript of the former could be safely offered as an expose' of the
blatant "sexism" of the Stuarts.
A day later, the paper had reprinted much of what had appeared in
the original article in an editorial headlined. "KITCHEN AND LAUNDRY VS. CAREER AND
OFFICE." And in the mysterious ways of the media, that same afternoon, a disc jockey
in Northern Virginia had come up with a copy of the tape, which he had proceeded to play
in thirty to forty second segments over much of his air time--orally smirking at regular
intervals, "How do you gals like this philosophy?"
But before the night was over, the mainstream alarm had turned to
confusion; while more moderate liberals had begun to join the left-wing panic. What on the
right had been mere interest and enthusiasm, had turned to elation. The Sarina Stuart
interview had become the subject on every radio talk show in Virginia and Maryland, and
the calls were running six to one in the lady's favor.
Although some only wanted to denounce the insensitivity of the
press in trying to force an interview on a young mother, taking her daughter to a fairy
tale classic; many working women phoned in to applaud the woman who "told it like it
was," and to offer to retire tomorrow, if they could possibly afford to; while others
called in to describe the "Prince Charmings" for whom they would gladly scrub
floors. Some, male and female, expressed an appreciation for the fact that someone in the
public eye had finally put the proper emphasis on romantic love.
The next day, the callers were more balanced--yet probably still
3 to 2 in favor of the Stuarts. But for four more days, the subject continued to dominate,
with the ratio shifting steadily back to one more overwhelmingly favorable to the position
taken in the interview. It was on the second day of this radio reaction that the NOW
candidate announced her withdrawal, throwing her support to the Democrat Muggeridge, and
calling for a "United Front against a reviving sexism."
It was shortly after this debacle that Maggie had been offered
her big chance, and had driven South, determined to separate reality from rumor.
She had not felt then--nor did she now--that the supercilious
attitude of the mainstream media towards the off-handed remarks of the young mother was
fair--not to Mrs. Stuart, and certainly not to a feminist movement, with which Maggie more
or less identified. The issue had never been one of the relative merits of an office
career versus a full-time pursuit of the domestic arts. And suggesting that it was, could
only hurt the cause for a truly emancipated femininity.
The issue was the freedom of the individual woman to choose her
own path, free of the familial or societal pressures, which through the ages had forced
sexually determined roles. And Maggie could only cringe at the thought of how the
heavy-handed Post treatment had played into Stuart's hands. The young women calling in to
support Mrs. Stuart, and to treat the feminist concern as little more than a bad joke, no
less than the obvious response of the full-time homemakers, were the predictable reaction
to an overreaching journalism.
But Maggie was not so certain of her own assessment of the Stuart
candidacy. Yet after two weeks, she felt that she knew her subject fairly well--although
she had met him only once, after a luncheon in Charlottesville.
Starting in the north, she had visited every definable region of
the State save that to which she was now headed. She had been impressed by Virginians'
courtesy, and by little touches of refinement for which her New England based prejudices
had not really prepared her. Never very parochial, she had expected a people culturally as
devoted to the arts as those in whose midst she had grown. But a bit of a cynic, she had
expected to find the fabled manners an affectation; much as she viewed the southern
accents of older women, who had spent most of their lives in the North, yet had never
changed their mode of speaking. Instead she had found the manners natural and unaffected;
a people who, whether liberal or conservative (or reflecting the studied moderation of the
mainstream candidates), could always put you at your ease and make you feel accepted. That
Stuart came from such a heritage, made his confident good nature, even when he was
advocating the most outrageous views, seem totally plausible.
And while Maggie did indeed find some of the would-be Senator's
views to be truly outrageous, she had come to respect him as an intelligent, thoughtful
spokesman for a once accepted doctrine, which he could still persuasively espouse. For
Stuart was more than just a conservative on economic and social issues; more than just an
advocate of States' Rights, frugality and limited government. In his speeches, the
candidate clearly disdained the very concept of human equality; equality as a goal or
equality as a verity; both equality among men and equality with women.
At first, her reaction had been the angry one of the young career
woman. Yet Maggie was already too good a journalist to let emotions block a perception of
what was really being said. And as she proceeded on her assigned task, she found that her
impressions were constantly changing.
Not that she was being won over.
Yet, increasingly, she saw in Stuart a mind superior to the usual
defender of the "verities" that she herself subscribed to. She could easily
conceive of his winning adherents among those less than impressed by the ex cathedra
spokesmen for the new enlightenment: A new orthodoxy, which not so long before had
prospered, when it had itself been seen as an overdue challenge to the pompous doctrines
of an obsolete order. Could Stuart, by setting in motion a new iconoclasm of the right,
turn back the clock full measure? The idea was frightening, but seemed almost possible.
Thus, without abandoning a good reporter's quest for objectivity,
she had come in leisure to reflect on Stuart's pronouncements from the standpoint of how
one might answer, point by point.
For three days, this had served to pacify her fears. But that
morning, she had scanned the teletype of an address, delivered at the State Teachers'
Convention in Norfolk, the night before, on "Women Hostage To Contrived
Delusion," and was now more troubled than ever, because she had no answers to much
that she "knew" was wrong. Moreover, the Virginian had apparently won converts
in the two thirds female audience. For according to most reports, an initial preponderance
of "boos" had turned over the course of forty-eight minutes to an at least
respectful applause--with pockets of outright adulation.
But the real proof had been on the news that noon. The
convention, which had been expected to endorse the Democratic candidate at the morning
session, had been too divided; and had adjourned without recommendation.
Worse, Maggie found her own stereotypes in shambles. She had
believed that conservatism was closely linked with a "New Right"--with sexual
repression, no less than forced roles. Yet Stuart, while maintaining an almost Edwardian
good taste, had treated human sexuality (at least the heterosexual variety) more openly
than had any other serious American political figure in her lifetime. Or how else could
one construe this passage(?):
But while
functionally... procreational; our sexual natures are such, that none who reflect fully
need ever doubt the overriding purpose. As we grow older, we tend... to scorn and ridicule
the adolescent in his preoccupation with the more immediate aspects of the quest; to use
the jaded sophistication of a more cynical perspective to mock the spontaneity of youth.
But in this we err! Nature can not leave the survival of her
species to chance or formal education. In the passion of the flesh; in the teenaged
longing to be mated--not the verbalized compensations of those who have suffered--we
observe the true nature of our beings.
Men and women were not put on this earth to seek equality; but
each, the other. It is in success in that quest--to be well and truly mated--that we know
our greatest joy; in failure, our greatest sorrow. It is in that primal bond, not of
equals but of complements--of different sides of one procreational entity --...that each
of us must find completion, and without which no one of us can be fulfilled. When we are
asked to reject sexually determined roles--told that it is demeaning to be perceived as
the objects of one another's sexuality--we are asked to deny the very essence of our
being. |
So far, of course, no real reason to reject any of the
verities of Maggie's life. An independent young woman, she had still never abandoned her
own adolescent hope of someday marrying the right man, and giving back in full measure the
love she hoped to receive. Those adolescent cravings--if not quite so overpowering as
Stuart suggested--had once been dominant enough.
But there was nothing in any of this to require the abandonment
of a career, or a retreat into some sort of renewed serfdom--as she had come to view the
traditional status of the full-time homemaker. On the other hand, she did wonder in
passing, if she had allowed older, more cynical voices--male or female--to engender a
species of self-reproach at her own instincts beyond what was necessary. Stuart's thoughts
on this, at least, did not degrade; and could perhaps only be faulted, as being too
obvious to need recital.
There has been a tendency, at times, to apologize for our sexual natures as being bestial
or animalistic--as though our egos were such fragile things, we could not bear the thought
of a commonality of trait with other species. But the procreational drive of an individual
can stand no higher or lower on the scale of creation than stands that individual. The
mating frenzy of the moron, thug or blackguard, stands at one level; that of an Aristotle,
Virgil or Leonardo, at quite another--although each may seek fulfillment in roughly the
same manner.
We are endowed with sexual natures--as the believing must
acknowledge--that we may participate in the ongoing rush of God's Creation. And you cannot
separate the effect of that sexuality, upon the whole of one's personality, by an
arbitrary reference to whether the conscious quest is procreation or the gratification of
a lower, more immediate and personal, need. In the passion of youth--however often
misdirected--we see the power and purpose of our Maker. |
Maggie wasn't sure that she even still believed in a
material or a spiritual God. She had once--as a child. That she could well remember. But
in college, she had come to doubt and to question.
Yet treating other people's sexuality as a reflection of their
respective levels of existence, certainly didn't bother her. Nor did Stuart's claim, a
little later, that women ought in fairness to respect the greater urgency of the male
need. That was not the sort of distinction that threatened the emergent rights of woman.
And she remembered, also, her own first experiences at the not so tender side of passion.
Maggie had been fifteen, when she had first achieved an orgasm.
But the orgasm had not been Maggie's.
On a summer Friday, she and David Stanfield, then sixteen, had
gone with two other couples to a PG-13 movie, which featured a thoroughly emancipated
heroine, who had enjoyed the services of several men while surviving and triumphing over a
not so convincingly handled male intrigue. In the dark, Maggie and David had ended up by
the wall (off a ways from the other couples), where they had enjoyed a genuine sense of
privacy.
She wasn't even clear now, just how it had gotten started. But
they had fallen into a pattern of heavy petting--actively groping for one another's
privates during the sex scenes. And at one point, Maggie had reached her hand completely
into his pants to measure the male part, while he rubbed the female, and David had erupted
like Mt. Vesuvius.
It had been awkward at the time, what with the volume of the
fluid that had suddenly gushed over her hand and wrist. Without even a tissue to clean it
off, she had been forced to wipe the hand on the seat beside her; dying a little, when the
lights came back, lest anyone recognize the nature of the traces. She had also experienced
a little never stated resentment, that he had been released while she had not.
But though Maggie had had steamy, well-lubricated moments in her
previous sex play--and some very satisfactory culminations since;--she had recognized from
the volume of "gunk," which David had produced, that men and women experienced
sex in physiologically quite different ways. And while she would probably not have
volunteered the viewpoint, she had no qualms in conceding that issue to the conservative
candidate. Yet she would never have seen in the phenomenon much reason to be deferential.
A spirited girl in her own right, Maggie had a genuinely healthy
libido, for which she felt no guilt. Indeed, she had been doing the wash in the basement
laundry, the day after the David Stanfield experience, when still miffed at how easily the
boy had climaxed, she had decided to try something, she once had ridiculed. It had come
from the passage of a book, read by a friend, suggesting how a young woman might obtain an
orgasm by pushing her "clit" against the corner of an automatic washing machine,
as the agitator worked the clothes.
With some help from one hand--and some trepidation, even though
she was alone in the house, lest anyone discover her in this absurd position--Maggie had
achieved her first actual orgasm. But she had remained embarrassed ever afterward about
the specifics; and had since come to rely upon the efforts of congenial young men, rather
than mechanical objects, for all her outlets. Though it had been about a year later,
before she had really gotten started.
It was at the end of her Junior year--during the "AIDS"
panic. Maggie had gone to a graduation party for about 15 to 20 couples (including several
other juniors), at the home of a boy whose wealthy parents were committed to
"sensible responses" to "sensitive problems." And these
latter--without bothering to check on the attitudes of the other parents--had demonstrated
an awareness of public health and "safe-sex," by placing a generous supply of
brochures and "condoms" on each of two tables--one in the front hall, one in the
living room--as the graduate and his date were greeting the first guests on the front
porch. The "sensible" parents had they hied out the back door for a nearby
resort.
The brochures had explained for any young man, not sufficiently
acute to figure out how the little balloon-like devices worked, their proper use; and, for
all the world, the paramount importance of "Safe-Sex"--in the "present
crisis."
While many of the invitees had originally been startled at the
blatant display; as the evening wore on, "Safe-Sex" had become an idea whose
time had come; and the generous supply of form-shaped latex had decreased rather faster
than the stack of pamphlets.
After a time, Maggie had followed the example of the older
girls--who with varying degrees of enthusiasm had done their part for public health;--and
had allowed her date "Safe-Sex."
Although the first go had been a bit disappointing, she had
become sufficiently aroused that when, after some fingering and much additional fondling,
he had wanted to make another statement; she had proven more eager, and had experienced
her first true spasms against the organ of a man.
Thereafter, a budding feminist outlook had not prevented Maggie's
enjoyment of "Safe-Sex" on a frequent basis--at first with one or the other of
two boys in her class in high school; later, in college, with another boy, who was
studying to be a doctor. (They would split when, on the eve of graduation, it became clear
that he was looking for an old-fashioned wife; while she was definitely committed to a
career.)
Since graduation, she had had several lovers, whom Maggie would
have been the first to acknowledge had been casually selected and casually used; much as a
traditional male might have used a willing girl, with no thought of permanent commitment.
And she smiled to herself, as she remembered Stuart's outrageous male
"chauvinism," that the greater male need of which he had spoken, made it easier
for a young woman (who knew what she wanted) to use men, than it had ever been for a young
man to use women!
But Maggie also realized, stuck to that damn artificial vinyl,
that for all of her emancipation, she had only once in her life held the exposed flesh of
an aroused male within her loins. That had been on another date with David Stanfield,
about four months after the one previously described--and well before the events at the
party.
David had just started driving. And they had been alone in his
mother's car in a wooded area of upstate New York, when after a period of heavy kissing
and fondling) she had agreed to an actual insertion, upon a promise of withdrawal before
anything "happened." He had kept his promise; although he had made a worse mess
on her stomach, than he had on her hand in the theatre.
Reflecting on these events, she wondered whether "unsafe
sex" (she laughed at the term) would be more or less fun than what she had known for
the past seven years;--or whether there had been something in that Norfolk speech, or in
the general attitude of the political maverick who had delivered it, which had somehow
turned her thoughts in a more carnal direction?
That post-luncheon encounter with Stuart had taken place ten days
before (on her fifth in the State); and she had been slightly shaken by his manner. He had
been addressing the Charlottesville Rotary, and she had waited her moment in the outside
hallway, to go and introduce herself just as the last of the crowd had dissipated.
"The New York Times!" he had remarked
with a sly wink. "I hope that you won't be too hard on this reactionary
Virginian."
But though the words were jocular, the look reminded her
more of the penetrating, once-over assessment, which an attractive and perceptive young
woman in a cosmopolitan center, comes to recognize as one of the more visible traits of an
accomplished "womanizer."
And yet that look had gradually softened, while the tone
remained. And she had supposed at the time that she might have been mistaken. She had
later heard stories, when still in the Piedmont, which suggested that though Stuart and
his wife appeared to have an idyllic marriage, he did indeed have a past. And Maggie had
wondered ever since, what the "chauvinist bastard" had determined by that
assessment.
She now wondered whether, however she might resent the
Virginian's smug attitude, she was not somewhat attracted to him. Would she be willing to
make love to the MAN, in order to gather additional information, with which she might
expose the real danger of the CANDIDATE? Would she be willing to make love to him
for any other purpose?
But this was foolish! There were less than thirty miles to
Ridgemont; and her thoughts returned to the actual assignment.
She did not need to stoop to anything devious. Stuart's views
were unusually open for a politician's. And there were certainly plenty of attractive men
who would respect, rather than belittle, her career. That was what really stung in the
Norfolk speech. It had come in the way that he had summarized the results of the woman's
movement:
While profoundly different, woman's role in Western society was never really seen as
inferior to man's before the feminist assault came to be accorded intellectual
respectability.
Wretched in their paranoia and perceptually delusional, a small
band of soured emotional cripples...--bent upon drawing the human prospect down to their
own purposeless perspective--began an attack on the youthful vivacity, love and
enthusiasm, of America's daughters; and seeing their lot as inherently inferior, rushed
out in a blind neurotic fervor, to create the very reality they feigned to scorn.
Declining to be 'sex objects' for those, who from puberty had
sought always to be the 'sex objects' of women; they surrendered one of the most profound
advantages in all of nature, while greatly limiting their own capacity for normal human
pleasure.
By making the standard, acceptance into fields--such as the
military...--once reserved for men; they have invited comparison in terms of a measure
hereby their very structure has left them ever at a disadvantage. |
In an age
where reason and intellect were supposed to govern, Maggie wasn't at all sure that the
last point made one. But it was the overall thrust, which was the more disturbing:
Embracing careers outside of home and marriage, they have sought an independence without
meaning--leading to a greater dependence upon strangers...--while wholly failing to
perceive that the traditional male career served much the function of the peacock's
strut--our poor, human compensation, for not being so readily taken as love objects by the
once gentler sex, as they by us.
Engrossed in pursuits without purpose, feminists have eschewed
the traditional supportive role, which sustained man at a far higher level of performance
than would otherwise have been possible; and which converted the symbolic strut of youth
into a meaningful, generation spanning, commitment to family.
But in this process of transforming our upward momentum into a
living for the moment self-indulgence, they have failed to demonstrate any unique ability
in the new worldly yet artificial life-style--or anything with long term social value
comparable in any way to the excellence once demonstrated by their female ancestors. While
the whole approach has denigrated the roles of wife and other, for which their sex alone
has been equipped by nature--and which must remain always, their one clear area of marked
superiority. |
It was equally obvious to the
young reporter, that the Senatorial candidate did not have much to offer to the woman who,
whether from choice or circumstances, was never destined for parenthood. While he
expressed compassion for the childless, it was the compassion of a patronizing chauvinist;
which nowhere could acknowledge that a woman might legitimately decline the traditional
role--however personally or socially useful--simply because her interests lay elsewhere.
In
a mixture of anti-male enthusiasm with a psychology, which holds that if one but think
positively, she can overcome any inadequacy; the feminists have embraced a coarse
assertiveness, which assumes that others must always indulge the assertress in long
conversational diatribes against real or hypothetical detractors--those who doubt the
theories or worth of the protagonist.
Often, this is only harmlessly offensive. But in some situations,
it involves conduct that only a saint would tolerate from another man. And only a residual
femininity, which she may scorn in herself, will prevent that protagonist from obtaining
the more physical reaction that any man would expect.
Yet in no instance is there equality! In each case, the feminist
has forced a comparison where the woman is on a less than equal level. Scorning the
traditional rough equivalence, where either sex was seen as the superior in its own areas;
they have embraced a world in which theirs can only be viewed as the inferior! |
So far as
Maggie's outraged feelings were concerned, the acknowledgment that Stuart was speaking
primarily of a comparison of average men and women, and that there had always been women
of extraordinary talent--even in the fields of usual male domination--to whom such
comparisons had no applicability; did not help. All such a concession could do was to
dilute the effect of the obvious retort. Yet if all the world thought like the Virginian,
how would any of those extraordinary women ever have a chance of being discovered?
The candidate's basic assumption seemed the hated one that
nature, herself, had predetermined human roles; and that the free will of individual men
and women could never matter. Maggie did not have point by point answers. But a generation
of progress away from that underlying assumption, certainly seemed to imply that society,
collectively, had found its answer.
She observed the road sign. Only six more miles to Ridgemont.
Maggie wondered further about Stuart the man, and those stories
she had heard; muffled tales of romantic exploits while yet a student at the University of
Virginia;--muffled because Virginians still didn't talk that freely about their sex lives.
Might he not have some serious personal "hang-ups?" Might there not be more to
this defense of an almost dead order of human relationships, than the intellectual
argument at which he was so facile?
She remembered again that meeting in Charlottesville. She
couldn't quite believe that his interest in women went only to keeping them in "their
place," politically and socially. And despite herself, she began to find a certain
romantic allure in his conclusion:
I
cannot speak for our fair sisters. But I know that in our love of woman, we derive both
purpose and understanding. It is the one pure, elevating thread, that recalls us from a
preoccupation with the trivial, and causes us to aspire to be all that we can be! It is
the inspiration for honor; the source of each man's spiritual renewal.
As no one can separate sex-roles, or sexuality, from the very
essence of existence, the political attack upon our sexuality becomes indeed an attack on
life. |
If only
life were really that simple, Maggie thought, and people could always play at romantic
games. But she was puzzled at her own preoccupation with the physical side of Stuart's
remarks--rather than with the almost cavalier way that he had called for a halt to all
Federal intervention, directed towards the elimination of discrimination.
Perhaps she was more subjective than she had realized. Her own
employment now seemed fairly secure; at least since she had been informed of the editor's
expressed satisfaction with her copy, only two nights before.
But if Stuart were genuine, and not the "threatened
neurotic," which spokeswomen for the feminist movement were fond of painting as their
typical male opponent; he might just make some woman a reasonably decent lover. Maggie
also reflected on Mrs. Stuart--whom a liberal columnist had jocularly dubbed "the
perfect 19th Century political wife," after that Snow White interview;--and tried to
imagine what sort of a physical life they might have. But that too was hopeless.
There was no denying that they were a handsome couple. And there
was no denying that the one area in which Stuart had rhetorically conceded a freer, more
emancipated role to the modern woman, was in the quest for sexual fulfillment. It had come
in an acknowledgment of the significance of improved methods of contraception as a factor
in changing perceptions of acceptable conduct. But that didn't really conflict with an
avowedly sexist philosophy.
It was hard to imagine a man with such generally reactionary
views, being a particularly sensitive lover. No! He was probably only a "user."
And yet, although the young reporter felt that she should despise
the man for his seeming contempt for all that motivated her career and life, she perceived
instead a strange fascination; hot and stuck to that vinyl seat, a physical curiosity
which made her squirm slightly, causing a painful, tearing sensation on the backs of her
thighs. Her instinct told her that there was more to the man than either a sick,
rationalizing neurotic, or a callous user of women.
But just what kind of a lover would Stuart make?
Would one with his benighted attitude ever "go down" on someone? She squirmed
again, working a little freer of the vinyl, and feeling a passing longing to be touched.
As the large blue and white sign, "WELCOME TO RIDGEMONT," came level with the
Buick, she had started to amuse herself with thoughts of the candidate's face between her
sweaty thighs, satisfying her before she would shove him off--rudely unrequited!
Maggie decided that she might have been too quick to concede the
assertion that men had the greater need. She had been too long without. While it might not
fit the image of either an old-fashioned girl or an independent modern woman, she felt
that she could definitely use the services of a vigorous, virile man. And although she
knew that she would be too embarrassed to be with any man until she could either bathe or
shower, it tickled her fancy to think of humiliating the "chauvinist bastard,"
and sending him back in frustration to that "19th Century wife." He didn't
deserve the companionship of a woman of the '90's!
Then she caught herself. She was here on major assignment--her
first major assignment. And if she was going to let hot, "horny," impulses
dominate any part of her thinking, then the Charles Daniel Stuarts of this world had won.
There was a time to use men--as men had so long used
women;--maybe, she hoped, even a time to love one. But if any level of involvement were
ever to become her first priority, she would be no better than any of the day-dreaming,
empty-headed little "ditzies," who devoured romantic novels and prayed for
"Prince Charmings" to come and rescue them from a stern reality. So long as
intelligent and educated women continued to flirt with the same fantasies, women would
never achieve a true equality.
She would find a room and freshen up. Then there was a job to be
done.
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